My friend Ken, is in a place a lot like me, in Washington State. He wrote this great email to me recently and I want to post it and respond:
Other than installation [recent formalization of relationship with congregation] things are going well. Our membership is down from 76 when i started to 57 now. We used to have a 6 elder session but now only have 5 because so few people are willing or able to serve. A forty year member just left the church over what he considered to be apostate moves of the GA. And someone just drove do-nuts on our side lawn of the church in an attempt to spray mud on the church. they did a pretty good job. i tried to see it as a Pollock type art work but our grounds guy didn't see it quite that way. as i said, things are going well cause i try not to pay too much attention to numbers.
we are in the midst of trying to hire a part time youth worker. I've been more involved in some community organizing and our group is trying to move towards starting a community newspaper. also, i just finished a retreat where rick ufford-chase led about 20 ministers in our presbytery through some good discussions. he really is an impressive guy and his passion really provides some hope for a denomination that is sorely lacking for passion over anything not related to relationships with too many y or x chromosomes. our presbytery is coming up on a big vote in regards to a response to the GA's actions and I'm not excited about it. however, i was asked to give a few minute speal on why I'm Presbyterian after the vote to try to offer some hope in the midst of the struggle. I'm thinking about starting my testimony with Maryanne's quote, "our system is the worst one out there accept for all the other ones." what do you think about that? I've found that quote oddly comforting until i saw how the Amish responded to the tragedy inflicted upon them. man, i would love for my kids and our people to respond with the same forgiveness of that community and the same boldness as that little girl who offered her life in an attempt to save the other girls. now that is a community that realizes what it means to really belong, body and soul, in life and death not to themselves but to Jesus Christ.
Seek first the kingdom. Not a self-righteous way of seeking but an integrated way of loving more than the church as a reason to stay “in” it. I think you could do much with this in response to the PUP.
Like you, I'm sure, I’m so tired of church renewal language or neo-(fill in the blank) or post-(fill in the blank). Already, 8 weeks into designate pastorate, I am struck at what we all want the denomination or brand-institution to pour into that blank for us. We want it to leave something behind for us, to guarantee for us, to deliver us from, to give us... Who in the 2/3rds world has such a “right” to church? Where in the bumbling emergence of the early church were they shown a self-preserving institution/faith-statement. I think that "our system is the worst one out there accept for all the other ones" does get at this but fails to really answer, why any of these?
I’m struck by a helpful metaphor from (surprise surprise) art... It came to me when we were were starting an emergent cohort here in ATL, a friendship/conversation-based ecumenical theological discussions (except evangelicals come too).
We realized it is like a guild, a place for artists to practice and hone their trades and, at times, to share resources out of a love for what the trade becomes- for the beauty of it all. This is not to say music can be separated from the musician or that the only reason people write and perform is to deposit a disembodied “song” into space. No, musicians like singing, we like writing, and we love what we make.
The reforming guild of the connectional church: Any connection of practicing congregations would benefit from a similar appreciation of (1)what we are (co)creating- the beauty of the kingdom of God, and (2)some common agreement of practices/disciplines/concepts that contribute to the generation of such beauty- shaping and being shaped. What beauty do we seek? How do we shape our sacramental life by the gospel narrative to becoming embracing people and, visa-versa, how is knowledge of the gospel narrative inter-penetrated by our sacramental life lived in this not-yet-fully embracing world.
Metaphors like this make space for disagreement, concessions, and preservation but organize all these virtues around an eschatological hope, they root the reason for church in something bigger than our own self-security and assuredness. This PC(USA) might be just as good as any other game in town but only insofar as it can equip the sent community to go.
Here's a quick sports analogy (I'm weaker at these, I admit): Rallying under "our team can ball too" is not the same as "lets take the game seriously enough to value this team and make much out of it." This breaks down, of course, when you realize that our definitions for "game" have hardened since our team's heights in the 1600s and the 1950s. But that does not mean that simply forming a new team or forever downloading new skins or pod-casts until you have your very own self-serving definitions of teams and games frees you from the real task of relearning the game week after week, generation after generation.
Here's the test for Presbyterianism, and the jury is still out for me. Can this institution of Presbyterianism –or Presbyterianism at all– function in a semipermeable way. Can definitions of the church's participation in the kingdom of God mature or are they necessarily law? Do they serve, forever, as only a tutor and prisoner (Galatians)? If so, then we need to reform- with gratitude, beyond our parents' best efforts, into another yet-to-be-reformed definition of the team... For the sake of the game For the good of God's creation redeemed in Christ.
In the beginning we must quietly hover over and protect the nascent or germinating thought until it has toughness and durability. New and emerging ideas that have not been nurtures in their own seedbed should not be spoken of at great length, if at all. They will not survive if they are exposed too early, partly because they are too vulnerable to resist attack or even questioning, and partly because words give them a form and launch them prematurely, taking from the creator the inner necessity to work with them and give them the shape in stone or wood or deliberate words. If the creator does make the effort to write the story he has disclosed to another or paint the picture he has described, he has the feeling of repeating himself. -Elizabeth O'Connor, The Eighth day of Creation, p 50.
Art as a way of life before words
Each of us becomes the artist as well allow ourselves to be open to the reality of the Other and give expression to that encounter either in words of paint or stone or in the fabric of our lives. Each of us who has come to know and relate to the Other and express this in any way is an artist in spite of himself/herself... In the final analysis meditation is the art of living life in its fullest and deepest. Genuine religion and art are two names for the same incredible meeting with reality and give expression to that experience in some manner." -Vincent Van Gogh